“The heart has reasons that reason does not understand.” Jacques Benigne Bossuel
The world may demand an explanation, but you don’t have to provide it. If you always need a reason to do things, you might never try anything.
Who knows why you’re drawn to the sounds of an electric sitar or why you feel the need to write the same, odd phrase on every scrap of paper you can find? Who has to know?
All that really matters is your need to pursue these things. Maybe they’ll make sense later; maybe they won’t, but discard them and this is certain: nothing will ever come of them.
Besides, who can explain the crazy love we have for our children, or the way our hearts respond to beauty, or why we find something beautiful at all? Do we need an explanation?
The first thing I ever drew in one of my notebooks was a spiral. I didn’t know why. I just drew it, and then I drew more of them.
Pretty soon, without explanation, I was drawing spirals everywhere. Then, one day, I wrote the following words beside one of them:
“This is the shape of my life.”
I realized my life always circled around the same themes: a desire to write, a need to create something, a longing to help others do the same.
No matter how far I roamed, I always wandered back to the center of my true interests and my real hopes and dreams. No matter how hard I tried to be someone else, I wound up just wanting to be me.
Trace all of this and you’ll notice a pattern. It’s a spiral.
If I’d resisted that urge to draw spirals simply because it made no sense to do so, I might’ve never had that realization. And it was that realization that helped me decide to stop fighting myself.
Do what you must, even if you don’t know why at first. It doesn’t have to make sense. It just has to move you toward your center.
Think. Draw. Write.
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Oh I’m such a huge fan of this. Allowing something to play and exist without the need for justification can be such a thrill. I see my children do this all the time – there are no labels, no reasons, just “because”. Sometimes it’s scary – the ‘not knowing’ – but inevitably the spiral does move toward your center. We just have to trust in the journey.
And can I just say how much I love the phrase ‘Transcendoodle Meditation’ – I want some of that
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It’s easy. Just pick up a pen, doodle, and let your mind run free.
Thanks. This was calming and helpful in some way that I don’t fully understand yet…like your spiral. It’s the first time I’ve thought about my doodle eye. It shows up everywhere. Now suddenly…I SEE it. It’s my need to see things; to understand them. Which is cool cause sometimes I wondered if it meant I was a psycho…lol…way too much CSI.
Did I mention: Thanks!
That doesn’t make you psychotic. It makes you curious, and that makes you cool.
I love the sense of freedom I get from following those whimseys and passions and compelling fascinations. It’s such a relief to not have to always be so darn linear and productive all the time. Thanks for the reminder and permission to just play.
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Just found this old post. Loving it – being in the moment and doing what you love doing whatever it is. A life without labels!
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